December 19th, 2017 Tuesday
Dear Anonymous An
Open Letter.
**I Am sending you something
very nice and important over regular mail. I hope and Pray you still live at
the same place. I miss our friendship
and I miss Bob & you. I was thinking. You know, the three of us
could have started a very lucrative business and we would have done very
well. It could have been a nice
restaurant for example, and we could have taken care of feeding several hundred
homeless people every month, if we wanted to.
Just think of all the extra money we would have had to invest in our
grass-roots efforts to make positive political change. We could have done this
on a much regular basis. I guess you
have the opportunity to do this since you have your Master’s degree and a full
retirement. I , as you know, lost my entire life savings [ $80,000.00 in equity
in my home ] when I had a foreclosure in 2010. I don’t cry over spilled milk, I
have a very strong religious conviction and I keep going. It is a shame we let a silly racial
misunderstanding get in the way of the very strong friendship the three of us
had. We were like the Three Musketeers [by the Way did you know that was
written by a Black man? ] we were like the Three Musketeers. We stood up for one another and had each
other’s backs. We really LOVed each
other and had a wonderful friendship. I
don’t think it was GOD who ended our friendship.
**I want you to
understand that I could easily feel angry that you had so much success and knew
How to handle your money where as I made several mistakes and really had to pay
for those mistakes. If we had remained good
friends, I am sure I would have fared better because I would have run those
ideas in front of you before I made those decisions. I Am
too emotional a person. I moved to Delaware to write a book and I moved in with
a man I only knew for a year. I wrote
the book, but now I can’t get anyone to publish it. It was finished five years ago. When I lost
the house to foreclosure I was stunned and motionless. I left several important
items in the house including some, rare, original & exquisite art work by
my sister; my original incorporation papers; some adult movies that I cherished
[ even though I’ve discovered I have a bit of an addiction to them]; and some
clothing & furniture I should have taken with me. I left with my picture of Ernesto Che’
Guevara; my computer and the clothing on my back. I did this even though I had
my Dad’s van and could have taken much of the other stuff. I had plenty of time
to move out, but was too emotionally shell-shocked to even realize I wanted to
keep the items. I was not thinking correctly. I had three months to ``Get Out’’ but failed
to take proper action. All this is water
under the bridge right about now. I guess I’m just telling you this because I
wish things could have been different, but I am an adult and can deal with
reality – I have to deal with reality.
** You once
recommended a book to me called `` Inventing Reality’’. I was too scared to
read it. I think sometimes that the only
reality there is is the reality in our memories because the real earth was
destroyed a long time ago. We just wake
up to ``dreams’’ every day. These are
scary thoughts, but I believe in GOD and have a great deal of positive Spirit to
fall back on. I have another best friend
who is an atheists like you are. The
funny thing most of my friends are Pastors and Reverends. All I need to do is wake up and see the sun
rise and I know there is a GOD. I will
never reject GOD, but I spend much of my life trying to understand Him, knowing
full well I never will because ``His ways are not like human Ways,’’ like it
says in the Bible.
**Please enjoy
the gift. Let me know if you find out
how to reach BOB. I heard from Berta. She said She saw Medalya. She said Toby and
His sister are, of course, all grown up and doing well. They must be in their 30’s. Can you imagine
that?
**If you would
like to help finance a business idea of mine, let me know. I’ll be sending you
my 2017 business report. I don’t have
the money I need to do the things I want to do, but I keep plugging away
anyway. I Am working part-time and I have no money set aside for retirement,
except about $10,000.00 my sister has set aside for me. I still LOVe my life and have much happiness.
One other thing I
want you to tell me is How you have captured the imagination of such a kind and
sweet young man? Is He still your LOVer? I Am very happy for you and a bit
jealous. I recently broke up with a
gentleman I was with for only two years. I have never been very lucky with LOVe
relationships. You
deserve every happiness, as do I and the rest of humanity. I don’t know How you are doing with the
present government in office. I have turned to economics and think our
solutions are with finding Ways to educate people to spend money better,
invest, and get educated. The political realm is a minefield and a lot of
hogwash. Things go one way one election
and the other way the next. White People continue to run too many businesses. Many socialists want the overthrow of the entire
government. I think this will bring nothing but violence and loss, especially
for People of color as fascism will likely take over. This is really not wise.
**I do regret not
getting my Master’s degree and a have sorrow about my mental illness. But I have so much going for me that I don’t
worry about it too much. I have learned
to release the anger I have about so many Black men being in jail; Black
poverty; and gentrification. I can have
a little impact on these things by working towards positive things the best I
can in a consistent manner. One thing
that also hurts is being alone so much.
I do know How to meet people, but I’m open to any suggestions you might
have also. About meeting more younger men that is. I guess without having the financial end to
make things work easier, It is a great deal harder. This is what I’m encountering. But I really
don’t want to go with a person I control with money, or at least that is what I
tell myself. I really want someone who
is intelligent and thinks for himself, but who also wants to learn from this
vast pool of knowledge I have at my disposal.
I want a man who is smart, ambitious, Black or Latin, handsome, working,
educated, business-minded, a top or versatile, open-minded, religious or
Spiritual, good sense of humor, politically awake or able and willing to learn
and confident about himself as a Gay person.
This isn’t as hard to find as you might think. I just haven’t taken the time to strategize about
How to find Mr. Left.
Gratefully True,
Mr. Tracy Charles Gibson,
Founder, Chief, President of
Brother Tracy Gibson & Associates, Incorporated.
Building Strength through finding Solutions for Black
Families 1 [ 215] 823 – 9885 BrotherTracy11@GMail.Com
670 North 41st Street
Apartment B
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 19104 – 5202
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